3's a charm, right??
Not exactly!!
After all it took for us to have a family, I definitely had moments when I asked myself "what-in-the-world was I thinking!!!"
Brilliant.......I finally had the arms full of babies I'd longed for, a newborn, a 3 year old and a 5 year old.
In theory it was a fairytale.
I was blessed enough to be able to stay at home and raise my babies in our little yellow house, with a white picket fence on a culdusac (I'm not kidding!). My life could have been the headline story on "Picture Perfect Life" magazine.
Sounds magical doesn't it??? All I ever dreamt of, right??
Right!!!!???
I have a memory like an elephant but honestly the details in those early years with three small children are very hard to zoom into focus!! I remember the overall feeling, but the details get lost in translation.....
I had a husband who was gone, ALOT!! My final child didn't sleep a wink, my oldest child was beginning Kindergarten and my 3 year old beginning preschool. I must have driven around looking like a zombie in some kind of low-budget horror movie. I really don't remember alot of the 1st year when my final child joined us. Its written in the hard-drive but I just cant locate the files.
Then there were the "sick" days.
Oh my goodness!!
Why are all small children like germ magnets??
I remember them being sick, alot!! That means extra trips to the pediatrician, and probably to the pharmacy and probably spending sleepless nights rocking inconsolably miserable babies while watching late night TV.
Then, without missing a beat, I would get sick.
That was the hardest part.
Feeling absolutely green and having to take care of three babies with no-one to pass them off to.
It was hard!!
But.........
what I wouldn't give to have some of those simple, dreamy, delicious days back.
When I would wake to the sound of them babbling in their cribs or waking to yummy toddler feet poking me in the ribs or in my face.
Spending the mornings in our pj's eating pancakes and watching Sesame Street or Teletubbies.
Spending afternoons eating PB&J's on a blanket in the backyard and letting them run around naked in the backyard sprinklers.
Wiping runny noses or bandaging skinned knees.
Consoling alligator-teared toddlers or being a detective for the ongoing unsolved missing toy mystery.
The smell of freshly bubble-bathed babies dressed in furry footed jammies.
Tooth Fairies, Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny.
Having them with me every second, knowing they are safe and happy........
What I wouldn't give, to relive a few of those magical days, one more time..
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