The Gifts of Time...........

And time passes........

Dragging on, step by step, sometimes like trudging through knee deep snow.....uphill.....

And sometimes the hands of time are always one step ahead, the pace impossibly exhausting......

Sometimes, as strange as it sounds, it evens feels like both of those, simultaneously......

But there is work being done......

I see Him here, His loving hand, stirring, leading and grasping us forward, closer to Him......

I see healing, some physical healing, but to be honest, I have prayed for much more.......

but I wait, I do try, patiently, trusting Him, believing in His love and His promises......

I see other kinds of healing, too........in a family's desperate longing to have a child........in a child's answered prayer for her fathers clean diagnosis.......in the extension of kindness in strangers.......in an unexpected text from my husband........in my son's goodnight hug......In a friends embrace........when my daughter allows me to hold her hand, a little longer than usual.......

In the simple gifts of time......unpredictable moments........with my children, my Mom, an old friend, a brand new friend, our very old Sadie, our very precious old Brody.......in our home, on a walk, in a window of unexpected conversation, in new devotions, in the questions about my church home......

He's here, I have never doubted He would be.......And I still have so many questions like why? and when?...........but I know that time, is not something that I can fathom......the gift of it, I mean........

The beauty of it, the space of it, it's boundaries and vastness.......the opportunity to breathe it in, to feel in it, to love in it.....

That's the treasure of life........

Just to be here, for one more moment, inhaling every ounce of it.........in the deepest, caverns of our lungs.....

And in the exhale, those long seconds of release, there are a few moments of quiet space and clarity, with the hope that there will be the gift of more breath, more time and more love.....

And I try to remember to take moments, intentional breath, feeling the immense love of God in these gifts of time, no matter what they bring or how they pass.......

He is here, holding us in His precious hands, in every priceless one.......